1000 miles
I have had music for most of the time lately which has been good, because even if my body is a bit tired, it makes me feel mentally unbreakable. I am not, of course, but it is a good feeling.
I know I have been complaining. That is because this trip really costs maybe not so much blood, but definitely large quantities of sweat and tears. I cry every day: First of fear for what people warn me about – it is going to be SO steep and there will be SO much traffic (here?? I don’t think so.) and there are absolutely NO shoulders so it is VERY dangerous for you and it is going to be HORRIBLE – and then I cry of relief when it turns out it wasn’t so bad after all. I would also spontaniously start crying because the scenery is just so beautiful or when I see a green summit sign after hours of climbing.
However, I don’t mind this anymore. Everything has become easier to accept and deal with after I had a little talk with myself in Cedar City and reminded myself that these challenging circumstances actually are a big part of the reason for me choosing to be here doing this. So now I just let myself sweat and cry. As long as I make the miles I need to every day, I am happy with myself and my day when I set camp at night.
I will finish this posting with a quote of Renata Chlumska, who cycled and kayakked around the US a few years ago:
“There will be good days, and then there will be bad days, but then there will be good days again…”
Life can be so simple.